Today is my birthday.
We bought a house and we are finally moved in. Everything is still in boxes around me.
It’s been difficult the last few months. I’m not going to lie.
But I don’t want to be a downer so I’m not going to go into it.
My family and I are healthy. We have a place to live, food on the table. My company still has income (reduced, yes, but it’s steady). So there is a lot to be grateful for.
As I unpack I want to get rid of stuff.
I want to finish projects – quilting, knitting, cross stitch.
I don’t want to just finish, I want to expand my craft to do things that I’m inspired to do. It’s hard to explain. I enjoy my crafting. I find it meditative. I find it exhilarating when I’m learning a new technique. Or even when something goes right the way it’s supposed to. It’s so satisfying. But at the same time, I feel like I’ve locked myself in a box to finish the stuff before I can start the stuff. I go back and forth on this all the time. If I have too many projects I get overwhelmed and I go a little insane. And yet, I feel like I have to start things when I’m inspired to start and in the last few years I’ve been pushing that impulse away so I can minimize the amount of projects I have. So I don’t go a little insane. I don’t know. This goes around and around in my head when I think about what I want to do.
I do want to learn bobbin lace. And I still want to sew garments. And I want to garden. So much I want to do and there’s just not enough time. ugh!
These are my thoughts… as the year ends, I’m preparing for my 2021 goals. I’ll keep rehashing it until I figure out what I want to do. I used to do the Sunday Stash report and I just stopped. I don’t remember why now. For a long time the numbers stayed the same. And I think I was going to report when something changed, but then I didn’t and then I just started adding fabric. I may start doing that post again. It helped to keep my numbers honest. And I was a little more mindful of when I added fabric in.